The beginning of Life as we know it...
My name is Amber. I take anti-depressants. I take meds for ADD. I don't care what you think about that. Take it or leave it, love it or hate it. Not a single post you find will be written out of hate or written whilst I am not on my meds. If you like me, good for you. If you don't, oh well!
Thursday, May 12, 2011
Thursday, March 10, 2011
My 30th post!!!
Since I haven't posted in quite a while, and my last post was somewhat depressing, I felt like posting something short sweet and to the point!
This will officially be my 30th entry on this blog!!! That's most definitely a record for me. My last blog got to 9 posts, very pathetic. But this one has far surpassed that! Thank goodness!
What else is going on in my life??? Well, I had a crazy spiritual high all day yesterday! It was way fun and quite productive. And today I started looking up japanese words in this little dictionary I got a while back so that I could put notes all over my room of the word for the thing the note is on. Nerdy I know, but I like it and I don't care what anyone thinks! :D
I think that is about it for now! Oh! And today while I was walking to and from PT, I was listening to this song called World News by the Local Natives over and over and over again :D I love that song so much :D And that band :D It's just awesome to say the least :D Here is the somewhat confusing and oddly obscure video for the song World News! Enjoy! :D
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oiGbFO-qZhg
This will officially be my 30th entry on this blog!!! That's most definitely a record for me. My last blog got to 9 posts, very pathetic. But this one has far surpassed that! Thank goodness!
What else is going on in my life??? Well, I had a crazy spiritual high all day yesterday! It was way fun and quite productive. And today I started looking up japanese words in this little dictionary I got a while back so that I could put notes all over my room of the word for the thing the note is on. Nerdy I know, but I like it and I don't care what anyone thinks! :D
I think that is about it for now! Oh! And today while I was walking to and from PT, I was listening to this song called World News by the Local Natives over and over and over again :D I love that song so much :D And that band :D It's just awesome to say the least :D Here is the somewhat confusing and oddly obscure video for the song World News! Enjoy! :D
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oiGbFO-qZhg
Sunday, February 13, 2011
Communication is key...

So today, I woke up at 5... pm. Yeah, not happy with myself. First of all, I was so pumped to go to church today! But instead, I slept for 16 hours straight! Second, my roommate taught relief society today, of which I am of the second counselor. Yeah, not feeling to great about myself. And then, my roommates get back and we have a "meeting" to talk about everything thats been going on. Which brought me to having my third mental breakdown of the week. Yeah, such a wonderful day, right? It gets better. So we all talk everything out, we close with a prayer, then my roomie brings her boy toy in. Everything is going great till I bring my computer out to share a funny song with everyone. Turns out, nobody wanted to hear it. After I had specifically told them I never get to share anything with them. So I end up back in my room, because somebody doesn't have anywhere but the living room to do her homework.
Okay, I need to hush up before I say anything I regret. That's all just me not on my meds talking. Gosh I hate it when I wake up late and can't take my meds! GAH!!! Anyhoo, so the reason I entitled this entry communication is key is because of that whole "meeting" and then me ending up back in my bedroom, not feeling any better after opening up and crying my heart out. But, at least they all know how I feel now. Hopefully SOMETHING will change. We'll see I guess.
So about today being my third mental breakdown this week. The first shouldn't really be classified as mental breakdown, so I just won't talk about that one. The second was on friday in my group vocal lessons lab. So first, in our lab, 4 of us are with our teacher to have lessons. We each take our time to work on anything we need to and we're done! Well I was taking my turn singing and my teacher keeps trying to fix my posture, which I've never had any trouble with before by the way, and it keeps feeling like she wants me to lean forward, which I know is wrong, so I keep saying that feels wrong. But she keeps insisting that No, this is right! Well I wasn't on my meds that day either because I had been in a hurry that morning, so I started crying. Reason I was crying is because I was in pain every time she tried to fix my posture. My neck and upper back have been getting really tense the last few days and what she was having me do was making it hurt. So I tell her that and she asks me to lay on the floor. Then she asks if I have been in a car accident recently. I say yeah, in august. She says I need to see a chiropractor. Okay then! So now I need to see a chiropractor on top of everything else I already have going on. Goodness, what a wonderful day. So that was my second breakdown. And you already know about the third one.
By the way, I got some heating pads to help with my neck and back and they really helped. But sadly, I have no more and it's starting to hurt again. So a trip to Walgreens is in order for tomorrow! Hopefully walking won't aggravate my back and neck. Maybe it will help, since so far, they only thing that's hurt it is singing and sitting at my desk all day, like I'm doing right now. Man! I need to get a life!
So that's all I had to say. Hopefully the road will get a little brighter from here on out. Adios!
Friday, February 4, 2011
Day IDK: JAZZ!!!!!!!!!

Oh. My. Goodness. I am on such a high right now after listening to mind blowing live Jazz for almost 2 hours. There are no words for how amazing that feels. I just love Jazz so much.
First, I love the soft ballads that just make you want to close your eyes and fly off into the sky. The way the drums make that shuffle noise just gets me every time. I love how the performers can manipulate their loud and sometimes obnoxious instruments to sound like a deserted green mountain in Ireland. The tone so soft, like the smoothest baby blanket running across your cheeks. The normally harsh Saxophones so open and round with their notes. Their phrases just dabbling along like a little stream running down a tree covered slope. So peaceful.
Second, I love the loud and hard sounds that Saxophones and Trumpets can make. The way the instrumentalist can blast so much breath through a piece of metal and such an amazing and pure sound is produced. Then when you put many instruments together, and let the masters have some fun, the greatest songs are created and never heard again the same exact way because half of the product was improv. I love that a simple instrument can be picked up by a musician with years of experience and together, they create the most beautiful thing. Music.
Third, I love improv! It always blows me away when a musician like Eric Marienthal can pick up an old, dull, beat up looking little Alto Saxophone and play any note he feels like. Infinite possibilities when simply given a key to work with. And somehow, the greatest can find their way through the maze and do it without a single thought to whether it will work. WOO!!! It just amazes me!!!
Fourth, I love the way musicians can gather together, and without any knowledge beforehand of what they are going to play, can hear what is coming and simply know what will and won't sound good. The way two people can just play back and forth and never stop. That happened in the concert I went to tonight. Twice, actually! Between the same two people! The guest Eric Marienthal and the drummer from our very own BYUI Sound Alliance. Twice they had a mind blowing battle between them that sounded as if the greatest saxophone and the greatest drums of all time came together and just played. So, so, so phenomenal. There are hardly words. And that happened twice!!! TWICE!!! Once in a lifetime opportunity right there.
Last thing I wanna say is that I miss having someone to share my love of Jazz with. My brother, who is currently on a mission, plays the Tenor Saxophone and is amazing at it. He loves jazz and when he plays, you can tell that he enjoys it. Unlike the lead Tenor in the band tonight that was so focused on his music that he looked bored and like he wasn't even playing. Which was super obvious, especially when the lead Alto right next to him is jamming out and half dancing in his chair, having the time of his life! And Jerry, oh Jerry, he was the one that you would think would fall off of his chair because of how much he enjoyed playing. What sucks the most is that I really wanted to call someone right after the concert was over and tell them how amazing it was! And the first person I thought of, I can't call! And I can't think of anyone else that would be as enthusiastic about jazz as I am! I love it so much, I can't even say how much! I hope to someday marry a Jazz Saxophonist so he can serenade me and I can go to concerts for free :D
Thursday, January 20, 2011
Day 131: ... (No Subject)...
So I started this cool new diet today! My mom and older sister have been on it for a while and it's really been working well for them, so I'm pretty pumped :D By the time I'm done with it, I'm supposed to have lost around 50 pounds :D Woot Woot!!!
On a less exciting note, school is going wonderfully! All my teachers are awesome, as expected of BYUI, and this semester is smaller so I know more people already :D
I have this one class, Basic Musicianship, that is basically theory and such and I'm flying through it like nothing. I could test out of it pretty easily, but I like this class too much :D It's easy, I have a bunch of friends in there already, and the teacher is super cool! For example, today at the end of class, someone said something about Mario and he, my teacher, rushed over to the piano and started playing the theme, the coin sound, the lava music, the water music, more of the coin sound, and the Game Over music too. It was way funny. He has an awesome sense of humor AND he is amazing at the Piano. Plus he has perfect pitch, which is pretty awesome, I must say. He is very educated too. He has a masters in Music Education, a masters in Piano Pedigogy, and he is working on his Doctorate in Piano Pedigogy as well. All from different universities I might add. So yeah, he's pretty cool. All my other teachers are pretty awesome too, just not equally as awesome :D
Anyways! Enough about my teacher, I"m doing awesome in that class. It's easier than trying to find a Casino in Las Vegas. Yeah. It's that easy. We had our first test last week and I got a 100 on it in 5 minutes. Which could have been 2 minutes had there not been a line. And tomorrow is our next test, which I'm pretty sure I'm also going to ace. So far, the only things I've really learned in that class is the names of the half step notes in solfegge and their corresponding hand signs, how to make a major into a natural minor, and I can also now sing hymns in solfegge instead of with the lyrics. Yeah, it's pretty awesome to say the least. For our test tomorrow, we have to sing All Creatures of our God and King, Come come ye saints and Book of Mormon stories, all in solfegge. All of which were also stuck in my head last night while I was trying to get to sleep. I was just lying in bed thinking "Do do re mi, do ti do re mi fa, mi do re, do ti do." Which is Come, Come ye saints in solfegge. Needless to say that it took me quite a while to fall asleep last night, especially since I started doing the hand signs as well. Yeah, I'm a music geek. Get over it.

I watched Finding Nemo yesterday :D I freakin' love that movie so much :D Lines from it have been running through my head all day :D I'm also a movie freak. Once again, get over it. I have loved movies all my life and always will. Anyhoo, I don't believe there is anything else I feel like sharing... Oh well! Adios amigos!
On a less exciting note, school is going wonderfully! All my teachers are awesome, as expected of BYUI, and this semester is smaller so I know more people already :D
I have this one class, Basic Musicianship, that is basically theory and such and I'm flying through it like nothing. I could test out of it pretty easily, but I like this class too much :D It's easy, I have a bunch of friends in there already, and the teacher is super cool! For example, today at the end of class, someone said something about Mario and he, my teacher, rushed over to the piano and started playing the theme, the coin sound, the lava music, the water music, more of the coin sound, and the Game Over music too. It was way funny. He has an awesome sense of humor AND he is amazing at the Piano. Plus he has perfect pitch, which is pretty awesome, I must say. He is very educated too. He has a masters in Music Education, a masters in Piano Pedigogy, and he is working on his Doctorate in Piano Pedigogy as well. All from different universities I might add. So yeah, he's pretty cool. All my other teachers are pretty awesome too, just not equally as awesome :D
Anyways! Enough about my teacher, I"m doing awesome in that class. It's easier than trying to find a Casino in Las Vegas. Yeah. It's that easy. We had our first test last week and I got a 100 on it in 5 minutes. Which could have been 2 minutes had there not been a line. And tomorrow is our next test, which I'm pretty sure I'm also going to ace. So far, the only things I've really learned in that class is the names of the half step notes in solfegge and their corresponding hand signs, how to make a major into a natural minor, and I can also now sing hymns in solfegge instead of with the lyrics. Yeah, it's pretty awesome to say the least. For our test tomorrow, we have to sing All Creatures of our God and King, Come come ye saints and Book of Mormon stories, all in solfegge. All of which were also stuck in my head last night while I was trying to get to sleep. I was just lying in bed thinking "Do do re mi, do ti do re mi fa, mi do re, do ti do." Which is Come, Come ye saints in solfegge. Needless to say that it took me quite a while to fall asleep last night, especially since I started doing the hand signs as well. Yeah, I'm a music geek. Get over it.
I watched Finding Nemo yesterday :D I freakin' love that movie so much :D Lines from it have been running through my head all day :D I'm also a movie freak. Once again, get over it. I have loved movies all my life and always will. Anyhoo, I don't believe there is anything else I feel like sharing... Oh well! Adios amigos!
Monday, January 10, 2011
Day 122: First week of the new semester!!! :D
So I was sitting in my Book of Mormon class today when the thought popped into my mind, "Hey! I should post on my blog about my totally awesome first week in Winter semester!" Okay so it wasn't exactly in those words, especially since I don't really think in words let alone sentences. I think more in song, which may sound odd, but hey, it keeps my mind entertained! :D And it keeps me from getting stressed by dwelling on silly trivial things that most other girls would normally occupy their mind with! And you know me! I'm no average girl! That's for sure!
Wow. I don't exactly know why just about every sentence in the previous paragraph ends in an exclamation point. I'm not yelling at you, I promise. So from here on out, I will not use any more exclamation points in this post! (Fail.)
In reference to the title of this particular post, I would like to share with you why I am loving Winter semester already! (Fail.) Even though it's quite often in the negative degree's while I'm walking to class. Anyways! (Fail. I really am going to stop using them now.) So first of all, every single one of my teachers is funny. Whether you may think so or not, I think they are all funny. I'm very much happy about this because I feel that when the teacher has a sense of humor during class, it lightens the mood and causes for a less tense atmosphere in the classroom. Which I consider to be very beneficial to me and probably to quite a few other people on campus as well.
Secondly, I didn't make the Women's choir or the Vocal methods class! (Epic. Fail.) You may be wondering why that is a positive thing. Well here's why: First, I wasn't expecting to get in anyways, although I still did my best. Second, I have been sick a lot recently and it probably isn't the best thing to be singing when you're sick. Third, I really like the songs we are going to be singing in Women's Glee (Mainly Steam Heat). Fourth, when I went to the first day of class for vocal methods, we went over all that would be happening in the semester. Albeit rather quickly and candidly, it just seemed like too much to have on my plate at present. And last but not least, now I get to take group vocal lessons from the same director that does Women's Glee :D Yay! (Fail. But that one doesn't really count cause saying "yay" with a period just sounds wrong. And it reminds me of Monty Python and the Holy Grail.)
The third reason I am already loving Winter semester is that it is smaller and you can feel it. Reason being, for one, it's cold and nobody wants to be here when it's -20. And two, there are quite a few more people in more than one of your classes than there would be in any other semester. Therefore, you feel like you know more people. Which is always comforting when family and old friends aren't around. For example, I found out today that a girl I sit by in my American Foundations class is also in my Book of Mormon class just before that. Yay! (Like I said before, Monty Python.) Also, there are about 5 plus girls from our Basic Musicianship class also in our Music Explorations class just after on Tuesday and Thursday. ( Side note: I am very much excited for my Basic Musicianship class, no matter how easy it may be so far.)
The fourth (and also last) reason I am loving this semester is that I have volunteered to be the FHE Mom. (YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That will be my one exception...) Which I am actually very excited about. You see I have all these ideas of activities and spiritual thoughts and such and I feel that being Ma is the easiest way to implement them! (Fail.) So anyways, I'm very excited to be the Ma in our FHE group :D However young I may be compared to everyone else.
Wow. I don't exactly know why just about every sentence in the previous paragraph ends in an exclamation point. I'm not yelling at you, I promise. So from here on out, I will not use any more exclamation points in this post! (Fail.)
In reference to the title of this particular post, I would like to share with you why I am loving Winter semester already! (Fail.) Even though it's quite often in the negative degree's while I'm walking to class. Anyways! (Fail. I really am going to stop using them now.) So first of all, every single one of my teachers is funny. Whether you may think so or not, I think they are all funny. I'm very much happy about this because I feel that when the teacher has a sense of humor during class, it lightens the mood and causes for a less tense atmosphere in the classroom. Which I consider to be very beneficial to me and probably to quite a few other people on campus as well.
Secondly, I didn't make the Women's choir or the Vocal methods class! (Epic. Fail.) You may be wondering why that is a positive thing. Well here's why: First, I wasn't expecting to get in anyways, although I still did my best. Second, I have been sick a lot recently and it probably isn't the best thing to be singing when you're sick. Third, I really like the songs we are going to be singing in Women's Glee (Mainly Steam Heat). Fourth, when I went to the first day of class for vocal methods, we went over all that would be happening in the semester. Albeit rather quickly and candidly, it just seemed like too much to have on my plate at present. And last but not least, now I get to take group vocal lessons from the same director that does Women's Glee :D Yay! (Fail. But that one doesn't really count cause saying "yay" with a period just sounds wrong. And it reminds me of Monty Python and the Holy Grail.)
The third reason I am already loving Winter semester is that it is smaller and you can feel it. Reason being, for one, it's cold and nobody wants to be here when it's -20. And two, there are quite a few more people in more than one of your classes than there would be in any other semester. Therefore, you feel like you know more people. Which is always comforting when family and old friends aren't around. For example, I found out today that a girl I sit by in my American Foundations class is also in my Book of Mormon class just before that. Yay! (Like I said before, Monty Python.) Also, there are about 5 plus girls from our Basic Musicianship class also in our Music Explorations class just after on Tuesday and Thursday. ( Side note: I am very much excited for my Basic Musicianship class, no matter how easy it may be so far.)
The fourth (and also last) reason I am loving this semester is that I have volunteered to be the FHE Mom. (YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That will be my one exception...) Which I am actually very excited about. You see I have all these ideas of activities and spiritual thoughts and such and I feel that being Ma is the easiest way to implement them! (Fail.) So anyways, I'm very excited to be the Ma in our FHE group :D However young I may be compared to everyone else.
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
Day 116: A New Semester!!! :D
Why Hello there! It sure has been a while! Almost a month since I last posted! Well, I'm back :D And I have lots to tell you :D
First of all, Fall 2010 semester is over, obviously. At first, I thought I had gotten all B's and 1 A, but, as it turns out, I got 2 B's and 3 A's :D Yay!!! :D I'm very happy with myself, if you couldn't already tell :)
With the Fall semester ending, I had to say goodbye to all my wonderful roommates for a while since they are on a different track than me. I didn't think it would be hard to leave, but then the day came, more like the hour before came, and I just started crying as it hit me. It totally sucked. And then after I left, I forgot my phone, so I had to come back to get it. Then on top of that, when we finally got on the road, I started to feel sick to my stomach. It wasn't 20 minutes before I requested a gas station and as soon as we stopped, I got out and puked right there in the parking lot, next to the car, with the door open. What a wonderful way for 5 strangers to see you. Thankfully, I got inside to the bathroom before the rest came up. But I felt bad because I took like 15 minutes in there. It was not my finest hour, that's for sure.
Anyways, I'm sure you wouldn't like to hear about my sickening woes of the beginning of the drive. That was all of them anyways :) The rest of the drive was just fine. That is, until the car broke down about 30 minutes from Salt Lake. But we were rescued, so it's all good :) So I finally got to Salt Lake at about 1 AM-ish. What sucks is that I barely got any sleep the rest of the night. Then the next day was uneventful, except that I saw Tangled for the 3rd time :D Love that movie, by the way. Then on Saturday, I finally got to fly home :D It was so good to be home :D
The next two weeks were spent in Texas, and they went by far too fast for my liking. But they were wonderful, nonetheless. Being there even made me think about looking into going to school at TWU in the future instead of up here in the frozen tundra of Rexburg, Idaho. They have the program I want and it would save me some money since I would be living at home. But we'll see. I think that one of the best parts of being at home for two weeks is that I found out that a friend of mine from High School got baptized this last week. I got to see him get confirmed on the following sunday. It was so amazing to see him turn his life around like that. I am just so proud and impressed by him.
Anyways! So now I am back here in -6 degree Rexburg, enjoying the short time I have with a car and with my sister (Can I just say thank goodness for 4-wheel drive?). I found out last night that I not only have to audition for choir today, I also have to audition to be in my voice lessons class. And I can't just sing a hymn for that one, it has to be an arrangement or something. So, I'm going to sing Come thou fount of every blessing. It's a gorgeous song. And it's the arrangement used in the Reflections of Christ slide show by Mark Mabry, if you feel like listening to it. It's on youtube, just so you know :)
And then, on top of auditioning for two things today, I also have to pick up my textbooks, print off the music for my auditions, and then I have a job interview at 6 tonight. This is gonna be a busy day. So I better go get started! Wish my luck!
First of all, Fall 2010 semester is over, obviously. At first, I thought I had gotten all B's and 1 A, but, as it turns out, I got 2 B's and 3 A's :D Yay!!! :D I'm very happy with myself, if you couldn't already tell :)
With the Fall semester ending, I had to say goodbye to all my wonderful roommates for a while since they are on a different track than me. I didn't think it would be hard to leave, but then the day came, more like the hour before came, and I just started crying as it hit me. It totally sucked. And then after I left, I forgot my phone, so I had to come back to get it. Then on top of that, when we finally got on the road, I started to feel sick to my stomach. It wasn't 20 minutes before I requested a gas station and as soon as we stopped, I got out and puked right there in the parking lot, next to the car, with the door open. What a wonderful way for 5 strangers to see you. Thankfully, I got inside to the bathroom before the rest came up. But I felt bad because I took like 15 minutes in there. It was not my finest hour, that's for sure.
Anyways, I'm sure you wouldn't like to hear about my sickening woes of the beginning of the drive. That was all of them anyways :) The rest of the drive was just fine. That is, until the car broke down about 30 minutes from Salt Lake. But we were rescued, so it's all good :) So I finally got to Salt Lake at about 1 AM-ish. What sucks is that I barely got any sleep the rest of the night. Then the next day was uneventful, except that I saw Tangled for the 3rd time :D Love that movie, by the way. Then on Saturday, I finally got to fly home :D It was so good to be home :D
The next two weeks were spent in Texas, and they went by far too fast for my liking. But they were wonderful, nonetheless. Being there even made me think about looking into going to school at TWU in the future instead of up here in the frozen tundra of Rexburg, Idaho. They have the program I want and it would save me some money since I would be living at home. But we'll see. I think that one of the best parts of being at home for two weeks is that I found out that a friend of mine from High School got baptized this last week. I got to see him get confirmed on the following sunday. It was so amazing to see him turn his life around like that. I am just so proud and impressed by him.
Anyways! So now I am back here in -6 degree Rexburg, enjoying the short time I have with a car and with my sister (Can I just say thank goodness for 4-wheel drive?). I found out last night that I not only have to audition for choir today, I also have to audition to be in my voice lessons class. And I can't just sing a hymn for that one, it has to be an arrangement or something. So, I'm going to sing Come thou fount of every blessing. It's a gorgeous song. And it's the arrangement used in the Reflections of Christ slide show by Mark Mabry, if you feel like listening to it. It's on youtube, just so you know :)
And then, on top of auditioning for two things today, I also have to pick up my textbooks, print off the music for my auditions, and then I have a job interview at 6 tonight. This is gonna be a busy day. So I better go get started! Wish my luck!
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